Hey God,

I don't have any eloquent things to say right now. I'm hurting. I'm broken. and I need your help. I'm mad at you God..and I know you have some grand plan through all of this, but I can't see it and I'm scared. I'm upset and I want you to make things bettter. I want to know that things will get better. Otherwise I just want to give up. I know you have great things planned God, and I know I said I wanted you to mold me into someone that could do your work for you, but I never knew it would hurt this badly. and if you don't mind, I think I'm just going to cry for a while, and try and figure out just why it is that I'm hurting so badly.

love,
sav