After Michael broke my heart, I remember crying to my sister for hours. I told her I felt so foolish for being so gullible and falling for someone so easily. I felt foolish for forgiving him after the past I knew he had. But I did all those things. I believed him when he said he cared about me and I fell for him and I forgave him and I felt SO stupid. But when I talked to my sister she said that I’m not the one who should feel embarrassed. She said that I should never feel bad for loving easily, or for forgiving easily, or for being willing to trust people. She said i wasn’t at fault and that Michael should be embarrassed instead of me.

Well here I am two years later, and I still have the same problems. I'm not sure if I should call them problems, but I still love easily, forgive easily, and trust easily. Unfortunately this means I get hurt easily. And I haven't quite figured out how to handle this. I feel like either way I'll get hurt. But I know what God wants me to do, and I know that there will be a day when I'll realize that my actions weren't in vain. Does that make sense? Probably not.

-Savannah

P.S. This is my favorite quote in the WHOLE world:

“There is no safe investment. To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly be broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket – safe, dark, motionless, airless – it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. The alternative to tragedy, or at least to the risk of tragedy, is damnation. The only place outside Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers and perturbations of love is Hell.”

—	C.S. Lewis