I wish I could tell you how much you really mean to me. I wish I didn't have these haunting memories that keep me up and give me nightmares when I somehow fall asleep. I wish I didn't always feel like this. I wish you cared. I wish I could move. I wish I could say what I'm feeling and not feel bad about it. I wish I could tell you everything that's on my mind all the time and know that I wouldn't be laughed at and know that I wouldn't end up in tears. why did things have to change? can we go back in time? do things over? start again? please..?